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We must all face the choice between what is right and what is easy

Not everyone I know happens to know that I suffer from a mental illness, it is something I try to be open about but it is increasingly hard has mental health is not a concept a lot of people have good grasp on. As much as I would love to educate everyone on the consequences of being mentally ill, it is tiring and it is often not met with a lot of understanding.

The approach to mental health issues is often turning overbackward, because people can accept you being ill in any part of your body but not the one part that is the most important to you: your brain. My brain is sick, it is sick constantly and it will not ever return to normal. And my brain is not sick by a tumor or a blood cloth, it is sick by a disease that is invisible to everyone else, a disease that no one can see apart for when I’m at my worst. And even then all they can see is that I look very tired.

I like to see my illness as a battle between good and evil. My illness is not a choice, but how I decide to act on it is a choice, and often the evil wins because that is the easy choice and I’m not hero. Most of the time the people I know the best are the ones who have to suffer from my illness the most. This make me keep most people at an arm’s length, because I know most can’t hold on in the long run, because one day I will be at my worst again. Bipolar is not rocket science, rocket science has definitive answers bipolar doesn’t. I can check my emotional math over and over, but I will still have bad days.

When I have a bad day and I have used all my energy not showing it and I finally get home, my sister is the one I snap at for not closing the door in time for the cats not to slip outside. And the truth is, I am sorry every-time that happens and I regret it, but sometimes I cannot help it. I like to think I am better now too, maybe because I’m older, maybe I finally found the right medical combination, but I like to think I manage my illness better now than before.

The true heroes in my life are those who are there, time after time, accepting my irrational mood swings again and again. The people who understand that even though I am on medication I will have good and bad days. The heroes in my life are remarkably few, but I am thankful they are there and put up with me.

Because people in my life has been very fleeting in my life, I have always used books as a sort of escape from the prison I find my mind in. Whether it is reading or writing, it is something that helps me get through the darkest of places. In many ways books has become more like friends who are always there to welcome me back, mostly because they are inanimate objects that can not go anywhere.

One book series in particular that has helped me get through though times are the magical world created by J.K. Rowling. It is a book series I cherish, which is taken out in the darkest of times just to find my way back to a place that is magical. I own numerous copies these books in several editions; hardcover, softcover, pocket books, English edition, Norwegian edition.

Recently I have been through another cross-country move to Belfast, after my years in London and San Francisco it is good to settle down in a smaller town with a slower pace. In these times with a new move, a new job and few well-known faces, I once again is pulled to the magic of Harry Potter in the darkest deep of my depression hoping that once again it will lift my spirit.

Happiness can be found even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light”

– Albus Dumbledore



Title: Four
Author:Chris Johns
Publisher: Three Faced Media
Publishing date: April 29th, 2015
Purchase Link: Amazon.co.uk

Synopsis: What if you realized the world faced an apocalyptic future of devastation and destruction from pollution, overpopulation and global warming… and you knew how to stop it… What would you do?

My Review:

“Four” is a book that present a unique perspective on current issues such as disease, global warming, and overpopulation. Soon it also becomes a science versus faith debate, by partnering up two main characters: one which rely on science and one with all his faith in God. Both the viewpoints are well presented.
The characters seem realistic and their actions are well founded. Each of the characters present their own set of morals and values, which makes them more like individual people and less than characters on a page.
My problem with this book was how it was formatted, as every time the author started on a new line it was a double space. This made it hard to distinguish between paragraphs and semi-paragraphs and made the copy the book seem less professional. However, pushing through the story was worth it in the end.

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Summer reading madness

The Yongzheng-Emperor while reading a book.

This year I haven’t really had time to read, and still I don’t have much time for reading for fun (I have three exams coming up and school is a priority, right?). So I’m planning to kick up my reading during the summer months (June, July and August) and for that I’ve prepared a list of book I’d like to finish during those months. This summer I’ll only work, work, work anyway (to save up a bit, since I’m moving to London in September).

I’ve made a list of 25 books I hope to finish before September
*This colour implies that I’ve already started to read that specific book.

  1. Ashfall – Mike Mullin
  2. clan of the Cave Bear, The – Jean M. Auel
  3. Crank – Ellen Hopkins
  4. Crescendo –  Becca Fitzpatrick
  5. City of Glass – Cassandra Clare
  6. Divergent – Veronica Roth
  7. Dune – Frank Herbert
  8. Fever –Lauren DeStefano
  9. From under the bed – Fiona McClean
  10. Gates of Rome, The – Conn Iggulden
  11. Gone – Michael Grant
  12. Graceling – Kristin Cashore
  13. Guilty Pleasures – Kitty Thomas
  14. Hitchhiker’s guide to the Galaxy, The – Douglas Adams
  15. Kushiel’s Dart – Jacqueline Carey
  16. left hand of God, The – Paul Hoffman
  17. Passion – Lauren Kate
  18. Perks of being a wallflower, The – Stephen Chbosky
  19. Power of six, The – Pittacus Lore
  20. Song fra Eirabu – Kristine Tofte (Norwegian)
  21. TGT1: The Game of Thrones – G.R.R. Martin
  22. TGT2: A Clash of Kings –G.R.R. Martin
  23. Where she went – Gayle Forman
  24. Uglies – Scott Westerfeld
  25. Unholy promises – Roxy Harte

Do you have your summer reads planned yet?

The thin executioner by Darren Shan

The Thin Executioner

Darren Shan has been one of my favorite authors since I, a day in the autumn or winter of 2003, laid my hands on the Norwegian edition of Cirque du freak, the first book in the Saga of Darren Shan. Since then I’ve been hooked.
Therefore I got quite happy when I came a cross his two newest creations at Stansted Airport UK. One of them was “The Thin executioner.”

Read more after the beak →

The awakening By L.J. Smith (Vampire Diaries) Book review

The Awakening by L.J. Smith

Why do people always copy twilight? As if! I understand why people think this is very similar to Twilight, but “Hello people” this book was first published in 1991 by HarperCollins Publishers Inc. So if anyone has copied anyone, it’s Stephenie Meyer, as Twilight is too similar to both the first book in Night world (By L.J.) and Vampire Diaries. But to get through with a copy-claim it has be copied word by word which L.J. Learnt in court.

Back to the book:

In this book we meet Elena. She is just back from France to a little village called Fell’s church. Since forever she’s been the Queen of the School, she gets every boy she wants (her words: “Since what’s more important than boys?”), she have a few good friends and even a boyfriend. But then Stefan, an Italian boy, shows up, and he is totally ignoring her. What do we humans want more than anything? Exactly, whatever we can’t have.
Elena goes through desperate measure to get to Stefan, she tricks her, now x, boyfriend to find out about Stefan, she gets a copy of Stefan’s Schedule and even pretend to be “The welcoming comity,” just to get him to talk to her.

This book is written with two point-of-views, now and then we get to read from Stefan’s pov, and I have to say that I enjoy his pov better. We slowly gets to know him and is able to guess why he acts like he does towards Elena. The only catch it that there are a little to many hints so I actually guessed the ending quite early.

L.J. Smith

L.J. Smith does always catch me with her writing. She has a way of writing that I really enjoy, so I don’t really care what I read as long as it’s written by L.J., because she is able to capture me anyway. I think her “Night World”- series is better than Vampire Diaries, but I’ve read all the Night World-books except the last one as I haven’t been able to buy it yet.

However, I don’t think I’ll watch the TV-series, because they tend to turn everything upside down. But I’ll read the books, at least the second one, as I have a double volume of the two first books and then maybe read the rest when I got time.