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We must all face the choice between what is right and what is easy

Not everyone I know happens to know that I suffer from a mental illness, it is something I try to be open about but it is increasingly hard has mental health is not a concept a lot of people have good grasp on. As much as I would love to educate everyone on the consequences of being mentally ill, it is tiring and it is often not met with a lot of understanding.

The approach to mental health issues is often turning overbackward, because people can accept you being ill in any part of your body but not the one part that is the most important to you: your brain. My brain is sick, it is sick constantly and it will not ever return to normal. And my brain is not sick by a tumor or a blood cloth, it is sick by a disease that is invisible to everyone else, a disease that no one can see apart for when I’m at my worst. And even then all they can see is that I look very tired.

I like to see my illness as a battle between good and evil. My illness is not a choice, but how I decide to act on it is a choice, and often the evil wins because that is the easy choice and I’m not hero. Most of the time the people I know the best are the ones who have to suffer from my illness the most. This make me keep most people at an arm’s length, because I know most can’t hold on in the long run, because one day I will be at my worst again. Bipolar is not rocket science, rocket science has definitive answers bipolar doesn’t. I can check my emotional math over and over, but I will still have bad days.

When I have a bad day and I have used all my energy not showing it and I finally get home, my sister is the one I snap at for not closing the door in time for the cats not to slip outside. And the truth is, I am sorry every-time that happens and I regret it, but sometimes I cannot help it. I like to think I am better now too, maybe because I’m older, maybe I finally found the right medical combination, but I like to think I manage my illness better now than before.

The true heroes in my life are those who are there, time after time, accepting my irrational mood swings again and again. The people who understand that even though I am on medication I will have good and bad days. The heroes in my life are remarkably few, but I am thankful they are there and put up with me.

Because people in my life has been very fleeting in my life, I have always used books as a sort of escape from the prison I find my mind in. Whether it is reading or writing, it is something that helps me get through the darkest of places. In many ways books has become more like friends who are always there to welcome me back, mostly because they are inanimate objects that can not go anywhere.

One book series in particular that has helped me get through though times are the magical world created by J.K. Rowling. It is a book series I cherish, which is taken out in the darkest of times just to find my way back to a place that is magical. I own numerous copies these books in several editions; hardcover, softcover, pocket books, English edition, Norwegian edition.

Recently I have been through another cross-country move to Belfast, after my years in London and San Francisco it is good to settle down in a smaller town with a slower pace. In these times with a new move, a new job and few well-known faces, I once again is pulled to the magic of Harry Potter in the darkest deep of my depression hoping that once again it will lift my spirit.

Happiness can be found even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light”

– Albus Dumbledore


Pegasi & Prefects

Title:  Pegasi & Prefects
Series: Scholars and Sorcery #1)
Author: Eleanor Beresford
Genre: Young Adult
Publisher: KoR Cubed
Publishing date: January 10th, 2015
Purchase Link:Amazon.co.uk

Synopsis: Charley’s final year at Fernleigh Manor is complicated by a runaway pegasus, unwanted Games Captainship, a dangerous new rival and, most of all, falling head over heels in love with another girl. What is a reluctant Senior Prefect to do?
A magical YA school story with a sapphic twist, the first in the Scholars and Sorcery series of lesbian YA fantasies.

My Review:

First off I don’t understand the need to label every books featuring a gay characters as a LGBT (or GLBT). We should stop alienate these kind of books if we really want equality.
The book however, felt a little like starting in the middle of a series that somehow tries to be Harry Potter just with a all-girl school. The writing style was elegant, but the story just felt too plain and simplistic. It starts off with the main character as a graduate student, and her breaking school rules. The concept of the whole world did just not agree with me, I felt like I was questioning everything. Eg. why would the school permit students to bring their Pegasuses with them, and then deny them to go to the stable and see them etc. I’m not too familiar with the boarding school concept in general, but it just felt like it went back to centuries and I did not grasp what and where this world is.
On a positive note, I did really like the cover.

Day 5: Book you wish you could live in

This is an easy one: HARRY POTTER. I grew up with that series, so it is an easy choice: I would love to be a witch in the Wizard world of Harry Potter.

Which book or series would you like to live in?

Ennara and the Fallen Druid

Ennara Series (1)

Author: Angela Myron

Patchwork Press

Published: 30.10.2014


Ennara and the Fallen Druid was an action packed and entertaining book, and I believe that if I was in the age-group for this book I would have fully bought into it and loved it to no end. However, I did find the book to have a slowish/confusing start, and it took a while to get used to the setting. The setting is very fresh and it had an original feel to it.
As the story progressed more and more action was crammed into it, and I feel like the story was a bit too short so it couldn’t fully explore the elements thrown into it. Like, what reasons did the cat have for joining them? As much as I loved the cat, I did not see why the cat would join them, as cats are very self-sufficient creatures (which I love).
Additionally the trials in the Sunken City felt too easy, everything seemed to conveniently fall into place. A bit too conveniently, and things kind of went on being a bit too convenient from there, which made the ending not too satisfying. The ending would have been more satisfying if the main characters would have to work a bit harder.

Though these things aside, I believe that Angela Myron has great potential, and a few more books down the road she will know to pace everything perfectly. I’m looking forward to future installments of this series, and hope that elements that were left in the brief will be fully explored later.

London calling

English: A street in Surbiton, near the station.

(Photo credit: Wikipedia)

I moved to London last week, to be more precise I moved to Surbiton to attend Kingston University.

This year I will be living in Halls at the Uni with 5 flatmates which all are rather nice. I’ve just got all the kitchen equipment I need to make food during this year so I guess I won’t be starving either, thought I’ve more or less lived on other’s food the last coupe of days. Continue reading

Day 5: A character that you love, but others hate:

Okay a character that I love (kind of) but others hate have to be President Snow. I don’t think he is a great person, I don’t particularly like his personality but I think he is very real. He is evil and he is evil though out, he’s also intelligent and dangerous. Maybe this is a little about me always roaring for the bad guys in books, The Hunger Games is one of the few where I didn’t (ex. I love Voldemort in Harry Potter). However: every appreciate a hero, but what they love is a bad guy, because the bad guy brings the story to the next level.

So I guess I kind of love President Snow, because I love how he’s so real through out the books. He is the person you can count on, in a bad way, you just know what he will do because he is the person he is.

President snow

“Oh, my dear Miss Everdeen. I thought we had agreed not to lie to each other.” ―President Snow to Katniss

Looking forward to the Harry Potter premier?

Harry Potter And The Deathly Hallows

Image by moby74 via Flickr

At midnight tonight the 7th Harry Potter movie will be released at cinemas all over the world. I have ticket for the first screening in Fredrikstad and I’m looking forward to it like crazy.

I’ve loved the books and the movies for so many years, and they have a special place in my heart.

When  I get home (I have to walk a few freezing kilometers) I’ll start putting a review together and it will hopefully be up tomorrow or at Saturday.

Are you looking forward to Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallow part. 1? Why/Why not?